Sticky Notes' Notes

As I want to
I want to start this
whatever it is
without limit, barrier
Leave it be
one sided
or unrequited

I do

when he speaks
there's this calm feeling surrounding
He was the kind of man everyone would fall in love with, even if they didn't want to
I will cherish this feeling
the good feeling
-Jakarta, 1st January 2015



I don't know if it's okay trying to look smart by going on a circle of something blunt that I said.
I, the slow and not quite smart, myself.
At least, I'm not desperately trying to look smart like those guys did.
-Jakarta, 18th January 2015



It is pretty scary of what your mind can do to you
all the bad judgements and the unhappening things
when you're not there when everyone is
when you can only guess what they do and say
damn bad thoughts

-Jakarta, 24th May 2015 (The thyphus syndrome)

For once, I want him to feel the same sufferring feelings

the waiting, the expecting things, suffer like mad

Like, seriously

I want him to suffer

-Jakarta, 14th June 2015

Sebuah akhir kisah
dari cerita yang tidak berawal
Cerita ini semua tahu
Menurutku

Tapi tidak dengan dia
Dia yang buta akan segalanya
Hanya memiliki praduga

-Jakarta, 15th June 2015

BORN HATER

We're born nice but the life teaches us the word hate

All the hates that come from pain, sadness, humiliation jealousy anger 

All the hates that come from the reaction of every bad things that happens

Why react wiithb hate?

Because they're blind

That's the nice word for, yeah stupid

They don't know the reason

They don't know how to react

So they just, hating

They don't understand all the feelings, all the reason.

So stupid of blaming others and just

take the easy path, hate

-Jakarta, forgot to write the date

what a retarded fucking stink coward good-for-nothing piece of shit.

You dare doing something retarded like that to me. you will never ever get the chance again and DONT FUCKIN EVEN THINK ABOUT IT YOU FAT UGLY FAG.

I'm puking right now, at your face then I'll be throwing you at what you belong, just be a fuckin  pupuk you shit. 

Don't be a shitty shit, SHIT.

-Jakarta, curse the date fuck that day that's fuckin retarded lame shitty fat good for nothing guy

Don’t expect too much on something that was never meant for you.  It’ll only hurt you in the end. 

-Jakarta, when I know that I'm being baper for the little things he did

Yeah sometimes we're bothered by mere things that so horoudiously stupid.

-Jakarta, when I recalled the stupid things I've done

Either you are very desperate or it hurts too much

-Jakarta, when I realized I nearly confessed to the guy

semua cinta harus di ungkapkan, kecuali dengan orang yang terlalu mencintai dirinya sendiri

Jakarta, quote from Zafran 5cm

Im feeling so desperate i could die, help me

abis nonton vampire diaries, miris banget ceritanya. Ada si A yang pengen selametin keluarganya, sedangkan keluarganya pengen nyelametin si A. si A bertahan, keluarganya mati. sia sia juga kan. jadi siapa yang harus mati? both of'em? yep that'll be good.
well anyway, after i watched that tv series, i dont know what's gotten into me. I just feel so sensitive, the first thing i felt was angry to my classmates in my new highschool, i dont know why, but i was the one that did wrong deed to, i shouldnt be angry with'em -,- but i do, i did! i just did it again!
screw me, i just wanna get the hell out of that place, that class, that damn high school. i was just being not comfortable w/ those stuffs like you know, the things to get popularity thingy aaah i hate those words. i just wanna live a normal happy highschool life, but these thoughts of having no friend is making me insane. i hate this. i wanna go back to middle high, rewind the time, and never gets into a boarding school, so i can keep up with my other friends, not losing contacts with them, not feeling like i have no friends. I'm mad. yes im insane. i hate this school i hate me i hate myself!

akhir akhir ini.. gue melas banget

semenjak masuk kelas 3 ga enak banget, temen temen semuanya ga gue kenal kecuali desi elin yuli hani renita sama sekar. ga tau tapi gue jadi dieeeem banget, ga nyaman, apalagi dari semua yang gue kenal itu ga ada yang deket sama gue. jadi males bawaannya kalo sekolah pengen pulang mulu ga ada temen ngobrol, udah 3 hari gue duduk sendiri kayak janda kesepian yang melaaaas banget. Bayangin aja semuanya lagi tereak tereakan berbangga bangga jadi orang cacat, cipika cipiki, lah gue ngerem di tempat duduk kayak orang cupu melas banget. aaaah naas banget nasib gue. pengen pindah aja pindah kelaaaaaaaaas :(

Emang ini muka gue pas waktu ke ragunan (di sebelah kiri) melas banget kan nah gitu muka gue pas di kelas baru guee. engga banget kan. janda kesepian tidak tidak

My mom's changes

Lately, i've been thinking. what've happened with my mother? she's changed somehow, she's became a health'd freak. She's always commenting everything that I eat and drink. She said, I can't eat food that fried, No MSG foods, no fast foods, not even junk foods, its like everything (every food that she mentioned) is endangering me, or even killing me. But gladly, lately she always wakes early, and makes breakfast (a healthy breakfast) dor us (my familly). And what's the reasons behind her changes? what's her motives?


Here's my mother's picture, isnt she beautiful? (yeah, she's gorgeous)

I'm terrified!

Don't know what to do
He's mad, and I'm terrified!
He's mad because of me
Yes, It's because I'm mad

I'm mad just like a friend'll do
He didn't text me or anything
Just to say hello, or what I've been doing
Since I've moved
I was extremely angry

Yes, It's a little thing to say
But it's rather important to do
Yes, It's so simple
But It's not hard to do right?
It's the thing you have to do

To stay in contact
To keep friends
To bound a friendship like Islam said
But I really don't care anymore

Noh He mad at me
Because I wrote something scary
Now he hates me
I don't know what to do and say

There's a guilt inside
Yeah of course
But I'm to shy
to let it out

I know god must be angry
Because I'm to block-headed
I'm like this is right now
Because of something

I really want to say
"so sorry, It's my fault actually"
But something's shut my mouth

He's mad
And I'm really afraid
He hates me
Now I'm terrified!

By Gita A Nisa
18th March 2011
I'm terrified!

I am ME

Miss you
Miss the way you laugh
Miss the way your lips talk
Miss the way you ticking the pen
Miss everything about you, even the smallest thing

I really do miss you all in the class
Miss your silly acts
miss to see your broad-back
Those warmness in the class' crowds

I remember something,
How I try to find the "upfront seat" in the class
Just to prevent my eyes "following" you from behind
I'm curious, did you do the same when I sit upfront?

Did you see me?
Did you miss me?
Do you still remember me?

By Gita A Nisa
Forgot the date
I am "ME"